fail

I wish you knew 

How much it hurts

When all I do

Is fail you

I try so hard

To be what you want

To do what you ask

To be perfect

You ask me what I what

I struggle to tell you

But when I finally get the courage

I'm wrong 

I constantly fail you

And I don't know why

I give you everything

I try so hard 

My life is chaos

I asked you to help

To play the game

Punishment and pain

I thought it would help

To stop me hurting myself

And when we got it right 

My heart grew

Now I'm flailing 

To you I've done nothing

Weeks of trying

Thrown away

So I bleed again

I punish myself

It help for a second 

But hinders for years 

I wish you could see

How much I'm dying inside

Because in failing

Not just in my eyes